We have a large family, and a very small vehicle. We will be very limited on space and so we will have to be very picky on what we take. I think we will be able to fit a small cooler, but it wont fit much. So, that leaves us eating out. OMFG. This former fatty has a difficult time limiting myself when it comes to eating out. At home it is easy. I just do not go out to eat. However, if I am on the road and forced to eat out. Hellooooooo way too much bad for me food. I wont lie, my portion control sucks. I am not one of those people who can order a yummy dish and only eat a few bites from each item. By golly, if I order it, I will probably finish it.
This anxiety is causing me to overthink every. little. detail. of this trip. I know that I can take a few veggies and some various proteins and be fine. My children? Yeah, not so much. I can hear it now, "Mom I am HUNGRY. I ate a bunch of peanuts but broccoli? Ewww, gross!!" or, "I cannot eat anymore veggies mom, but I am still starving." I really do not tolerate whining well in public and my kids know this. The monsters exploit it. I can see it now, they complain so much I just cannot handle it anymore. No one is having fun because of the whining, and I cave. We will go to a food stand at the theme park to order food for them, and my tummy starts to rumble. The fatty inside wins and I end up eating something that has 1000 calories just because the kids know how to annoy me to my breaking point. (No, I do not let my kids run the house. I am just more likely to cave in a public setting. They always lose battles at home.)
I feel silly stressing about going on VACATION, but here I am freaking out. I had a conversation with my oldest and the hubby tonight and disclosed this anxiety. My husband and son, who can eat or drink anything and not gain a pound, did not understand. They looked at me like I had 3 heads. I tried to explain that they have never had a weight problem and/or had to lose weight, so they just cannot understand what it is like. They shrugged their shoulders and that was the end of it. Maybe another former fatty will get it. Who knows. Or maybe I am crazy? Logically I know that a week of eating whatever wont make me gain back all the weight I have lost, but I do not want to have to lose weight that I have already lost.
Another minor stressor is that I will not be able to work out at my level for that week. I can do some stuff, but I will not be able to kick my butt like I normally do. Poor food choices and lack of strenuous exercise for 1 week? FML. This is not vacation, it will be a stress fest!
Hope everyone has a fantastic week!
-Just Me
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